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“I’ll go first.”
I couldn’t help but grin as I heard those words boldly spoken by our five year-old.
We were living it up in Branson, MO. Though a familiar location, this was a brand new vacation experience for us. We suddenly found ourselves not with just the “babies” of the family, but a daughter who had recently made a leap from somewhat cautious toddler to brave thrill-seeker.
She has always–at least up until last summer–been somewhat reserved around other people, and anxious about new experiences. It’s been so exciting to see her development in this area!
Chances To Be Brave
We try to give our kids a little space to try things, even some that carry a little risk. We believe the development of courage doesn’t necessarily begin with the big life choices, but rather in choosing bravery in the small things.
Also, the surge of parental pride is pretty rewarding when we get to witness them facing new challenges. The night before, she had taken on a huge zipline without any hesitation and now, here we were…
I know adults who wouldn’t do this. You sit in an individual little car, with one or two riders. It’s taken slowly up the mountain–high above boulders and trees–on rails with cables. Then you’re let loose, to come (much more quickly) back down, with the driver controlling the speed.
Or terrifying. You pick.
The kid knew none of this. She just knew that it was a fast ride, and that she would be riding with me or her dad.
Armed with only that information, she bopped up to the ticket booth from the parking lot, announcing to her cousins that she would go first.
Lessons in Faith on the Mountain Coaster
Several minutes later, as we careened down the rails (and I contemplated my own mortality), her statement hit me in a new way.
“I’ll go first.”
She said EXACTLY what my response should be to this life, to God’s calling for me.
Even if He’s changing the plan I had in place. Even if I have no idea what’s coming around the next curve. I can be assured that the ride will be fast. Life being what it is, I can expect some sharp turns, sudden drops, and heart-pounding exhilaration/fear.
However, I can also be absolutely certain of the character of my God.
I need to get comfortable being uncomfortable.
I don’t want to be content only when I’m riding the kiddie train, with no surprises or unknowns.
I want to boldly, EXCITEDLY step out into the unknown when I’m asked. Head on. With a smile.
“And I heard the voice of the Lord saying, ‘Whom shall I send, and who will go for us?’ Then I said, ‘Here I am! Send me’.” – Isaiah 6:8 (emphasis added)
I’ll go first.